The Luxuries In Life

I got to thinking the other day after I went out to dinner with my good friend Katie, who has a cutie of her own, about what we consider to be a "luxury" these days. She said something to me that really spoke the truth. She said, "He doesn't really understand the luxury of getting into the car and driving somewhere without a baby in the backseat." Amen, Katie. Amen! Let me start by saying that there is no complaining going on here from either one of us. I think at the end of our conversation we were at a mutual agreement that life is 110% better with babies in it. No doubt.

So, let me just paint a little picture of a day in the life of Moi with Miss Ava in tow. My examples will be brief with a little comparing and contrasting along the way.

Shower Time
Pre Ava: Whenever I damn well pleased.
Post Ava: When she's napping. But I have to wait until she's asleep in order to ensure she doesn't have difficulty actually falling asleep and have a meltdown that I'm sure is often heard in space. I need to be quick and quiet because that 1.5 hour nap could easily become a 45 minute nap and once she's up...she's UP! It's a race to see who will be "done" first. I often lose...

Driving...Anywhere!
Pre Ava: Who cares about traffic? Who cares if I go the long way? Who cares if the windows are down?
Post Ava: I must make sure I'm never out in rush hour. My bag of "car toys" must be ready and full so I can quickly pass her back toy after toy after toy to keep her content while we're in route. The windows should be up so she isn't blinded by the wind and I have to maintain a constant cool temp in the car so she doesn't sweat herself into a tizzy. All trips must be short and I must avoid stoplights and heavy traffic areas. Unsuspected stand stills aren't well received. When all else fails, we enjoy a sing along of her favorite songs.

Shopping
Pre Ava: Browsing and literally shopping until I drop.
Post Ava: It's in my best interest to have a route planned out in the mall and be as quick as possible. The stroller is only entertaining for so long. Trying things on? Ummm, I don't have the option. The fitting room is where it gets ugly.

Grocery Store
Pre Ava: Well, the grocery store pre Ava was the pits, isn't it always?
Post Ava: I must have lots of sani wipes to de-germ the nastiness that is a shopping cart. Who knows what was in the seat before Ava got there. She likes to gnaw on the handle and it's just gross. Again, timing is just key. No crowds or long lines allowed. I'd bring in the toy bag but she'd much rather "play" with all the food I'm trying to get home in once piece.

Toy Stores
Pre Ava: What's a "toy store"?
Post Ava: TOYS ARE EVERYWHERE!!! It doesn't have to be a store specific to toys. As soon as that girl spots the "toy section" she "ooohhhhhs and aaaaahhhhhs" herself silly. I did make the mistake once of letting her out of the stroller to get closed and it was a horrible idea. She wanted it all on the floor and when I pulled her away she had the tantrum of ALL tantrums.

Play Time
Pre Ava: Play time wasn't the G-rated play time it is now. It was more like happy hour or pub crawls.
Post Ava: Toys must be entertaining...for hours on end. Lights! Sounds! Movement! A billion pieces! Of course now all I see it sharp coffee table edges and glass cabinet doors by the stone fireplace. With a very mobile Ava it's bound to get crazy. I never stop moving... Never

Phone Conversations
Pre Ava: Eh, wasn't a big fan before Ava either.
Post Ava: None existent. Naps are meant for showers and chores...and Ava's awake time is too demanding of my attention.

Computer Time
Pre Ava: Whenevs....
Post Ava: Oh ya know, around 10 pm when I finally sit down at night. Exhausted.

Mommy and Daddy Time
Per Ava: Well considering Curt's work schedule it has always been crazy...
Post Ava: Hmmm, we've had one date in the past 3 months and two dates in the past six. I'm sensing a pattern here.

Bed Time
Pre Ava: Whenever I felt tired enough to lie down and take on my 8 hours in peace.
Post Ava: Even though many people say, "You should sleep when she sleeps". Funny. If I did that I would ZERO time to myself all day everyday. When Ava goes to bed it's "Me" time. I enjoy it. Sure, sometimes I enjoy it until 11 or midnight, but it's my time and I need it. Of course sometimes I do get an early rise out of Ava and the midnight bed time doesn't seem like such a great idea when she's up at 6. Yes. All things I need to take into consideration...

What's the point? No, people. I'm not ungrateful. No, I'm not complaining. No, I'm not making excuses. I actually miss her more than anything in the world when we're apart. Whether I'm running to the store by myself and I'm gone for an hour or if I'm off to spend a day by myself while she is with her Grandma, I always get so excited to come home and see what's she been up to. I miss her when ever we're apart. She's a part of me and my life is forever changed because of it. Yes, I'm always tired and never get enough sleep. Yes, what I once considered a luxury (new bags! cashmere sweaters! sleep! quiet!) are but a far and distant memory. But this is life. Life changes. I'm changing with it.

I still have bad days and Curt is still far away. He's so understanding of me. Ava and I are so fortunate to have him in our lives.

I still wonder what lies ahead...

I still get nervous and anxious about the unknown...

What I do know is I have the most awesome baby girl in the whole world and a hubby that supports us in every aspect of the word.

We're all still learning so much about each other along the way.

I'm a lot stronger than I thought I could ever be.

I Love Lady Antebellum

LOVE. (and it's "live"...which is even better.)

Mars! Or Vegas...Same Difference!

Ava and I took a trip out to see Curt over Labor Day weekend and we had the best time! Let me start by saying this: Just because there is NO humidity in the air doesn't mean that it "doesn't feel that hot". An oven in an oven people, and 100+ and up is just plain hot. You can't sugar coat it and fool me with your nonsense. I'm not sure what Ava and I would have done if we were out there for the entire 6 months because Curt said a few weeks ago it was around 110-115. We would have been in hibernation, for sure. The car was almost impossible to cool down even with the air conditioner blasting.

I'm happy to say that Ava warmed up to Curt within minutes. I think all those web chats we have really helped keep Dada in Ava's pretty little head. As soon as she saw him, she immediately got bashful and tried to bury her head in the stroller. She then refused to take her eyes off of him as we waited for the baggage and although he was desperate to pick her up, and didn't want to scare her. By the time we got to the car, though, she was climbing him like a tree. Phew! She remembers her Daddy!!! From that moment on I pretty much became a blur in the background and she really only wanted me when it was time to sleep. We have a solid routine down and it's comforting to her when it's time to nap or go to bed for the night to keep things as consistent as possible.

We did some short trips out to see the local sights. We hit up Lake Mead, the Hoover Dam, Mt. Charleston, and of course The Strip! I really wanted to see the Grand Canyon but it was just entirely too far of a car ride with the baby. I did see it from about 25,000 feet from my airplane seat, so that was pretty cool. (PS: Las Vegas looks like Mars, don't you think???) Speaking of the airplane, Ava was a great traveler-again! She managed to nap on both flights (direct, thankfully) and while she was awake she provided fellow passengers with some hearty entertainment with her many facial expressions and animated rounds of peek-a-boo. I was blessed with some wonderful and very helpful people sitting all around me that were more than willing to help take care of Ava. On a side note, flying Southwest was without a doubt the best traveling experience I've ever had, especially after my US Air nightmare.

Curt's room in Las Vegas isn't more than a small space with a bed, dresser, desk, a small kitchenette, and a teeny tiny bathroom. Uhhh, not the luxury digs we stayed in on the strip. Half of the lights in the room don't work and it has nothing to do with the actual bulb. The kitchen and bathroom were filled with 70's style orange counter tops and the shower head in the bathroom was eye-level...TO ME! I'm only 5'2'' and it was eye level!!! I think the air force needs to bite the bullet and invest in some small, but much needed, face lifts in these sad little rooms. I'm just sayin'...

On the other hand, my Uncle Mark was actually in Las Vegas the same weekend we were there on a work trip and he set us up in The Palazzo for one night and it was FANTASTIC. I think we need to thank his firm for footing that bill, ha! :) Talk about plush... It was fantastic and the view from our room was amazing. We took Ava to the hotel for our sleepover and it was just a really fun night for our family. We went out to dinner and toured all the hotels that we could get to. Bright lights, Big City is a busy place to explore, no matter what time of day it is. When we were checking out of our hotel the next morning around 8 am there were still loads of people still gambling and running around in the clothes they put on 12 hours earlier. Man, talk about feeling old! :) I'm secretly happy those days are long behind me. No all nighters for this girl... Thanks, anyway!

Curt is hoping Ava and I decide to come out and see him in November and stay with him until he's done in December. He misses us too much and vice versa... We just want his schedule to calm down a bit before we come out and invade his small space once again. So...here's to counting down til we see DaDa again!

As always, I leave with some pictures. All my FB have already seen these...but here ya go again!

Hello Yellow!

Oh I Wannnnnnt YOU!

JCrew, my weakness.

Why, oh why do you do this to me?



Ruffles. RUFFLES, for cryin' out loud!!! How do I resist ruffles?

Starting New

So, I hate being the person who airs their dirty laundry. It's just tacky! But sometimes, there are things that happen that just get too personal and it just feels better to vent my frustrations and let my voice be heard. I worry too much about things that I can ultimately eliminate from my life and at the end of the day, that's what I'm going to do. Aaahh, the high road. I'm glad I took it. My head is high and my spirits are up. Thank you all for your kind words, they meant a great deal to me.

On a more positive note... Here is the scoop on Miss "A" and her wild and crazy ways. I've been away for so long so I'm going to bullet my way through her accomplishments and milestones.

(B)Ava is:
-"walking" with the help of her walker and Mommy's hands. She's like a tipsy sailor who is out on choppy seas, but she is getting the hang of it and it's awesome. How did this happen so quickly?

-standing on her own! record to date? about 20 seconds...

-teething like a crazy woman. She has two teeth on the bottom and like, 4, on the top. The one next to her front tooth on the right looks as though it might be the size of a grown up tooth. No joke. When I went to get her out of the car the other day I was shocked to see blood all over her mouth and shirt because she was teething the crap out of her toy while we were driving.

-possibly a picky eater? See, she eats when she doesn't have any teeth coming in and seeing how she is working on 4 at the moment, all she wants is her bottle. Poor girl... She does love to eat about a million Gerber puffs throughout the day but it stops with them. She loves to "do it herself" and sometimes, if I'm lucky, she feeds me a puff or two.

-a water bug. She absolutely loves, loves, loves to swim in the ocean and her baby pool. I've had to hide the damn thing off the back porch because if she sees it, she loses it when I walk in the other direction. And I mean, LOSES it! How do you explain to an infant that, "Mommy isn't filling up your pool at 7:30 in the morning." It's just not happening...

-a dancing machine. Sitting, standing...makes no difference. Girl loves to shake it.

-not afraid to give out the kisses. She is a big fan of the open mouth kiss and if you're lucky, she'll leave you a little strand of drool as she pulls away.

-confusing my sister in law's boyfriend with her Dada. In her defense, they look very similar!!! She was loving on Warren down the shore like crazy and she doesn't normally take to strangers too quickly. But, boy oh boy, she was all about climbing on him, being held by him, staring at him.... To say she was obsessed would be an understatement.

-an expert at pointing at things she knows. Like, "Ava, where is the moon? Where is Mommy's nose? Where is the butterfly? Where is brown bear? Where are the birds? " So smart!!! It's weird when we read books and I'm labeling because she pays such close attention. Man, am I a proud (bragging!) Mom, or what? Please, don't let me be the parent I can't stand... I promise, I won't do it...

-a total book worm. In a room filled with toys that play songs, light up, and practically play themselves I can confidently say that Ava will always go towards the books. She is just so content flipping through the pages and looking at the pictures. I love watching her point at the pictures she likes the best. Man, so cute.

-a big fan of finger puppet songs. She still loves, "Itsy Bitsy Spider" but we have always added "Oh Mister Sun" and "Where is Thumbkin" to our playlist. Thumbkin is so great because she uses her pointer finger and bends it up and down while I sing. So smart!

-11 months old on Tuesday. Oh. My. Word. Time to start planning her big birthday party!!! Themes, anyone?

-a beautiful sleeper and is currently pushing 11.5 hours a night with two naps in the day. Naps last about 1.5 to 2 hours and it gives me time to shower for nap one and then do chores for nap two. Free time? What the hell is free time? Free time ends up biting me in the butt when I waste time on the computer/couch/bed and get nothing accomplished. Booo. Sometimes I do allow myself to be a lazy momma though. Sometimes...

-making tons of sounds these days. I can't think of a time today when her pacifier wasn't in her mouth (for naps and such) when she wasn't hollering out some "words". Girl is a chatter box. Hmmm, wonder where she got that from?

-still loving her Dada on the computer. She is a major show off for him and her facial expressions and the sounds running from her mouth let us know that she is 100% communicating with him. It's so awesome.

-starting to protest things she doesn't like by fighting back with her body. Meaning, she will twist and turn and push off her carseat when she doesn't want to get in it, give me the stiff leg treatment when she doesn't want to be in the pack and play, and hold onto my shirt for dear life in an effort to avoid being put on her back for a diaper change. Strong willed, for sure.

-pulling herself up in the crib and pack and play and then gnawing on the railings.

-funny when she stares into the video monitor when she wakes up and it freaks me out because although I know she has no idea what it is, I feel like she knows I can see her through it. She's saying, "Uhhhh, I'm up now Mommy, come get me please!"

-opening up drawers like crazy. She already picked through Grandma's filing cabinet this morning and threw most of the important documents all over the floor.

-following me everywhere I go and climbing up my legs when she wants to be held.

-very heavy. Where are arms muscles?

-still growing that hair but we are no where near getting any bows or ribbons on her head. Boooo! I've been growing her collection, though!

-attached to her blanket that she uses in the crib. She now grabs it when I go to pick her up after she wakes up and brings it with her. It's officially a security blanket.

-ummm, just overall awesome. I'm sure I've missed loads of things but I guess those are the biggies.

Ava has this scent to her that is impossible to wash away. It is, without a doubt, the best smell in the entire world. It's that sweet baby goodness that is just so personal to her and when we're apart I can still smell it. Aaaah, I just love her so much.

I will try and do a Curt and Moe update tomorrow and then hopefully just get back into the swing of my blogging. I love doing random updates and everything but this past month was busy with vacations and parties... Tough life, I know.

Until next time...
(..and no, I didn't proof read. too lazy. too tired.)

Growing Up, Moving On

This is going to seem a bit off topic and random for most of my friends that read this blog, but here is goes. This blog is here for my family and friends to take the time, if they want, to catch up on what's happening with Curt, Ava, and I. I actually love that there are people out there who care enough to come on by and see how Ava is growing up and how much we're in love with her. On that note, please don't use it as a way to gain information about our life and to turn around and say negative things about me, Curt, and especially Ava.

There is a line. It's been crossed.

If you don't like what you see here, then you know what to do...

Dear Blogger:

I'm sorry I've neglected you so. See, Miss Ava keeps me quite busy and I'm scared that if I look away for just a moment, I'll miss something big and be forever disappointed.

An update tonight, perhaps?




XOXO,

Me